The last post was quite matter a fact, I wanted to get out on 'paper' where I've been and where I'm going so I can get it clear in my head, get some perspective, work out what's going on now. Although, the last post really did make the whole experience seem quite clinical and emotionless. So here it is, one more time, with feeling.
The feeling that comes from treating myself to sexy lingerie or having a stranger go out of their way to tell me how fantastic I am looking (both of which happened this morning) is fabulous!
I can't even describe how incredibly proud I am of myself for the weight that I have lost. I feel that it is another amazing achievement I have made in my life which says so much. When I see myself naked in the mirror my mood is always uplifted. My body isn't the prettiest thing, it looks a bit like a war torn land (which is exactly what it is, it has been a battle ground for many years). But my body represents the huge achievement I have made and when I see it I remember what I have done why I did it.
I used to have so many aches and pains. My feet, my back, my legs, constantly throughout the day at night my body would plead for relief. And now that is nothing but a memory. I love the feeling of feeling the development of my muscles, feeling my legs and arms toning up, seeing myself squatting with an incredibly large barbell on my shoulders! Another motivation to get fit and healthy was to be able to run, to climb, to dance, just to be able to move! Our bodies are meant to be our tools in this life, there to make it a fantastic one and in the state I was in I couldn't do much with it but waddle. Now I run, I dance, I dodge in an out of crowds, I can do so much that I just couldn't before. I have even climbed over tennis court fences just for fun (thanks Paris!) And the benefits keep on coming, if I had of continued the way I was, I would have diabetes now and who knows what other physical and psychological illnesses but instead my health is super important, I get regular services and tune ups and I am in top shape! Without deciding to get trim and terrific I wouldn't have found Body Step. I love my Step and I certainly wouldn't be instructing if I hadn't become healthy and fit. I could go on and on, endlessly listing why I love my new body and why when I see myself in the mirror I can only smile.
Basically, I am ecstatic about loosing 40 kilos! The thought of it, seeing my new body and the endless benefits get me on such a high! Tick it off my list, now what's next?
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oh YAY! i slept like crap last night and so am easining into the morning with sitting and internetting and was coming to write my own entry and secretly hoping everyone else had a new one to read, ponder and respond to. and you do!
ReplyDeletealthough this comment was sent before reading it. so ill do that now :I eheh
wow. love it. congrats again :) :) :)
ReplyDeletevery wise and wonderful.
and i love the war torn land bit. I suspect a lot of girls' bodies are war torn lands. Battles have gone on, it's true.
And hooray for mirror satisfaction! That took me until my 20s to achieve. And it's not there, in my situation, because I think what I see is particularly great, it's there because I look in the mirror and see healthy and functioning and that's really all it needs to be, y'know? As opposed to in my teens when I'd look in the mirror and see stomachs and thighs and insufficient cheekbones and less-than-airbrushed skin.
Being mean to your body is a bad idea and a very unfair one, since it's been so good to us. I've forgotten this a bit lately, and haven't been all that great to it. But your post reminded me how lucky we are to have them, so I'm making it a good breakfast right now:)
and i reaaaally am starting step again. truly loved it. the most fun I've had moving around in my whole life (and that includes all my sport training). I guess im just a little worried that given my current semi-shoddy fitness levels i might actually have a heart attack or something! eheh