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Cam was fantastic with encouraging me when I was loosing weight. Sure, there were times when his desire to drink with me got the better of him. But mostly there was lots of 'you don't really want that chocolate,' 'the gym will fun' and 'Go, Kristy, go!' While the encouragement was fantastic, it wasn't until yesterday that I realised what role Cam played that really made the difference with the weight loss.

Getting back into the weight loss, I have had the same desire and passion to make it happen as I had last time. But this time something is missing and until yesterday I couldn't quite work out what it was. This is where Cam comes in. Cam was a spark that kept me firing. Sure, I was doing it for me, and I would have done it regardless but knowing Cam was incredibly proud of me was a great motivator. At the gym I would run motivating thoughts through my head, often on the treadmill I'd do the weight loss maths ('if I keep loosing weight at this rate by Nov I will weigh x' etc.) to keep myself going. Which was great for what it is, but to come home and say to Cam 'I did 2 classes, back to back!' or 'I increased my weights today!' or 'I weigh less than 100kgs!' and for Cam to be so proud of me, that was what really got the motivation pumping! I can't thank him enough.

Since I recognised this as one of the reasons that I am not loosing weight this time around I feel a sense of empowerment. Now that it has been recognised it is time to increase my motivations. The fact that I will be taking a training course in Body Step instructing at the end of July is a good start, I will have no choice to but to be fit and healthy! It's all there; my desire, my passion, the extrinsic and intrinsic motivations. It is mostly a habit thing, being used to having Cam there. Like I say, I don't need him to make it happen, he just made it better and easier. This time I need to take on the roles that Cam once did as well as the ones I currently am and just make it happen!